Friday, August 26, 2011

August 26, 2011

Hi all,

Sorry for the long space between posts, but I wanted to wait until I felt a bit optimistic.

I am now finished with the 2nd phase of any major medical event.... the aftermath. It is when the excitement is over, and the dust has settled.... nothing to see here folks, move along.... The anxiety and apprehension are gone, and I am left with pain, drugs, tubes, drains, staples, limited activity, etc..... This has happened after every surgery, so it is no big surprise, but still was annoying, and a bit debilitating.

I woke up Monday morning with just a little energy, and have been feeling a little better each day. I can’t describe how good it feels to wake up feeling something beside doom and gloom. When trapped in that mind set, it seems that there will never be a light at the end of the tunnel, and that life will never be anything but a never ending struggle to survive.

I have been averaging 2-3 surgeries per year, and each of them sets off a couple of months of “no energy to do anything but the absolutely necessary”. Each time, when I start feeling better, I am faced with a stack of undone chores, that take several months to get through.

Don’t want to spend too much time complaining, but definitely a sisyphean situation. In this situation, self employment is a curse. My financial situation begs me to be optimistic, innovative, energetic, and decisive, and suffers when I fail to live up to those ideals.

On the medical front, I have seen my doctor 3 times since the surgery on July 8, and am now happily tubeless. I am restricted, for ever, to lifting no more than 20 lbs, and only that if it doesn’t hurt. I am pleased to find out, according to SSDI, that this is not the least bit disabling.

Anyway, I hope that I have turned the corner on medical issues, and can focus on living life.

Ideas for my first book....“YOU MIGHT BE OLD AND SICK IF”

You look at health care options on the internet instead of porn.

You are a stranger at the bar, but the girls at the pharmacy know your name, phone number, and date of birth.

Your friends avoid asking “how are you doing”.